I think I have lost my touch. My
touch in writing and it is a very scary feeling. Am experiencing what they call
writer’s block. Don’t get me wrong; like any other writer; I have experienced this
couple of times only this time it has lasted way too long. Or maybe it has been
lifted…it’s sad that I can’t even tell.
Experts say that when a woman is
under stress, it can adversely affect her libido. I think that is what is
happening with my writing…my libido has been greatly compromised. Well you must
be wondering what could be stressing me. Let’s just say that I recently found
myself at that uncertain point when everyone wonders when there big break will
just get here. I view this as a blessing in disguise though. Maybe I will
finally be able to make something out of the love of this art-read writing.
Anyway, let’s not dwell on my inadequacies
because this post should not be about that. It should be about my hopes for 2013.
I recently made an attempt at independence; I moved out. This was probably my
biggest achievement in 2012 and I am very proud of myself. Just like that
attempt, I hope 2013 will be the year I gain independence with my art. By that
I mean I hope that this year I will gain confidence with my writing; that I won’t
be afraid to flaunt it because only then will I make mistakes and learn from
them.
2013 is the year when Kenyans
will usher in a different structure of government. As exciting as that is, it
also holds a lot of fears for most Kenyans …post election violence. I can only
hope that this year’s elections will be different. That Kenyans will not end
butchering each other over leaders who lets admit do not care much.
I intend to face my fears this
year. What I mean by that is I want 2013 to be the year I learn to be more
assertive with the things I want. It will be the year I set the pace for the
rest of my life because who am I kidding, I might be young but the sooner I figure
things out the better.
I hope 2013 will be a year that
the bond between me and my baby will only get stronger (yes, I am a hopeless
romantic). I hope to get closer to my friends and family; the people I want to
be part of my life for the long run. On
top of all this I hope to reignite my love affair with books into a bonfire
(that bonfire will not be from burning books just so we are on the same page).
I know it doesn’t sound like much
but those are just some of my hopes for 2013 but above everything; I hope 2013
will be successful and awesome for you. 2013, it’s me and you against the
world.
